Well, honestly, it’s not what it used to be. When I created this website in the spring of 2007 it was my portfolio of “work” I had created up to that point. As the years went by, I continued to rebuild the site from scratch, updating my work, trying to find new and creative ways to showcase what I could do for others.
It was only ever useful 1/5 of the time, yet I continued to rebuild and keep it updated. Then two years ago I shut it down completely. I had found a job I loved, found a group of people I enjoyed working with every day, and had no need to keep it open.
Then my mind got the best of me. And I don’t mean that in the “creative itch” sort of way.
I stress out about most things in life, over think things, worry about how I did or did not act in certain situations, and frankly all of this has taken a toll on my mental health. I tend to keep a lot of this information inside my head and refuse to talk about it claiming everything is fine. I realized I needed an outlet, thus where this site comes in.
It’s primary focus for awhile is going to be a place that I can write and talk about how my head works, in hopes of it proving useful for my own well being. It’s not a “How To Get Better” blog, not intended to help others in anyway (though if you read any of my posts and are able to identify similar thoughts or feelings you have, in which it might help aid you on a path to better mental health, that would be fantastic).
I can’t help but put some of my work back up to showcase others in case I get that desire to work on a project again. It comes and goes. I need to keep myself busy with projects otherwise I simply go crazy. Most projects are writing based. I’ve started trying to better my writing skills both in style, structure, and tone. Writing and telling stories really is where my passion lies these days, but the occasional poster or cover isn’t entirely out of the question.
Guess we have to see what kind of mood I’m in.
So yeah, just know that Randombell.com is back, it’s sort of what it was before. It’s sort of not. We’ll just have to see where it goes from here.